” Babes your all I want. I loose myself when I look into your eyes it’s like I’m staring at the most beautiful thing out there for the first time. And I just go blank. I get goose bumps and nervous and there’s times where I feel like its just me and you left in the world and no one is anywhere near us. I just want to wrap you up into my arms and hold you and squeeze tight and never let go. I want to kiss you forever and show you how much I love you and care about you. Your my billion dollar prize possession but I wouldn’t sell you for a penny. I’ll never let you go. I’ll treat you like the princess you are and spoil you as much as I can. Giving you everything you want. I will make love to you like no other ever before. I will show you things no one ever has and I will be there for you when no one else is. You are my girlfriend Jenna rose and I love you as much my heart lets me. Forever and always 10-02-10, you are my one and only” I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND!

I deserve happiness. I deserve to be loved, the right way. I deserve to be treated with respect. I deserve to smile, laugh and actually mean it. I deserve better, but i’m not a quitter. & that’s the real problem. I shouldn’t feel this way. Nobody should.  

Fuck you, you’re disgusting. You have no idea that what you’re doing is still effecting me. Hearing your name makes me sick, and thinking about what you did even sicker. I hope you see this, and I hope you know how you have lost every ounce of respect I ever gave you. But you know what, thanks for the tears, arguments, and the many insecurities. Thanks for ruining me, breaking me, and doing what I never thought someone could. Satisfied because you got to me, well think again cunt because I won. He chose ME.

What a perfect start to my spring break. Nathan and I went shopping, saw Titanic 3D, colored Easter eggs, and had a wonderful sleepover. After waking up to his kisses we’re going to cuddle.